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December 1, 2007
Family Matters
Several members of my family are in town this weekend. This is just what I didn't want.
I know. They are my family. But, you know what?? From the time I moved down here and was left stranded with the x and two babies (and through all the turmoil that ensued), my family was my babies. No one knew what I was going through, and it seemed like no one cared.
Well, my mother knew but she didn't tell anyone ... God forbid anyone know that things aren't perfect. My family is a family of secrets. When we are doing well, she brags about how great her kids are. When we are struggling, she avoids bringing us up. So when I was alone in a cold house with no heat and barely any food while the x was out on the road sleeping his way across the country, she didn't let anyone know that I could use some help. If she had, maybe someone in the family would have told me that he was not worth staying married to, since most everyone else in the family knew he was cheating but I didn't.
Things like that just aren't talked about.
So excuse me if I don't want to spend too much time with my family. I would rather spend time with my best friend, who is there for me through thick and thin, and my kids. That is my family ... the people that I draw close when I need to be held, the ones that stick with me through thick and thin.
I know. They are my family. But, you know what?? From the time I moved down here and was left stranded with the x and two babies (and through all the turmoil that ensued), my family was my babies. No one knew what I was going through, and it seemed like no one cared.
Well, my mother knew but she didn't tell anyone ... God forbid anyone know that things aren't perfect. My family is a family of secrets. When we are doing well, she brags about how great her kids are. When we are struggling, she avoids bringing us up. So when I was alone in a cold house with no heat and barely any food while the x was out on the road sleeping his way across the country, she didn't let anyone know that I could use some help. If she had, maybe someone in the family would have told me that he was not worth staying married to, since most everyone else in the family knew he was cheating but I didn't.
Things like that just aren't talked about.
So excuse me if I don't want to spend too much time with my family. I would rather spend time with my best friend, who is there for me through thick and thin, and my kids. That is my family ... the people that I draw close when I need to be held, the ones that stick with me through thick and thin.
