Resigned

I accept less respect than I deserve because I don't really think I deserve all that much.

I put up with being treated like dirt because I think that I don't deserve better.

My question is this ...

Do I continue to look the other way or confront?

Do I bite my tongue and assume responsibility for something that I don't think I am to blame for just to keep the peace or do I risk being told that my feelings are really not all that important, that I really do deserve to be treated like shit.

Because I've spent most of my life being told that shit was all I deserved, and, though I go out of my way to show others respect, I am not shown respect in return. I don't get it.

And so I take it. And I swallow it down. And I assume it's my fault.

I take it. And it's slowly killing me.